In limbo

I'm still waitlisted at Iowa and while at the beginning of the month I thought an admissions offer was not probable, the circumstances have changed. In one week the list moved 13 spots! RIDICULOUS! If one spot opens up, if one student decides to go elsewhere I could potentially be in! It's exciting, but it's scary. It's coming down to the wire and I'm so nervous. At first I was anxious about not getting in and now I'm anxious about actually starting in one week! My time to adjust will be limited to overnight :/ I was fine up until talking to Daniela. I hadn't updated her in 3 weeks because she has been studying for the LSAT, and so the news of me potentially moving to Iowa by next Thursday came as a shock to her. I freaked out when I heard her reaction. She has been one of my closest friends since I first moved to LA and our connection is so deep that all my anxieties just came out at the sound of her voice! After our conversation I started to cry :/ to get all my thoughts out before they consumed me...it's a good thing Rocio woke up when she did to hear me out.

I mean, my life could potentially change DRAMATICALLY in 6 days! And by dramatically I mean, I could be in a different city and state, completely different from LA or SD. ..Iowa City, Iowa, population 60,000 of which 30,000 comprise U of Iowa! The whole situation is incredibly exciting, but like I said, scary. I need to stay positive and remain focused. I can't focus on the details, such as what clothes will I take, should I buy shampoo here or over there...The details will kill me if my thoughts linger...everything will work out in the end, whether I go or I stay.