Manu Chao

So I didn't get into Iowa. I realized that it wasn't going to happen mid-week and I felt so relieved. I didn't like being in limbo; I wanted to have a firm grasp on my future and I finally have it. I now have classes to take in September and the MCAT to study for.

Since I was in LA for Rocio's birthday, a bunch of us schemed together a plan to kidnap her and take her to Tijuana, BCS, Mexico to see Manu Chao perform on Sunday, the 24th! It was amazing, despite the injuries that she and others incured...at their own faults I have to add!
Emmanuel hurt his back and she now has a cut on her head and a really really nasty left knee!

Chio's Pseudo Bday

Since I'm not sure what will happen this week with Iowa I decided to plan Rocio's bday festivities one week in advance, as her bday falls on this upcoming Sat. A few of us got together and had dinner at The San Antonio Winery and Restaurant. Pretty nice place, good food...great wine! I created a gift basket for Chio with 5 different wines and other goodies and surprised her at the end of dinner. A few people came back to our apt for more wine drinking! OF COURSE a game of Taboo ensued! Freakin game went on for about 4 hours! Check the havoc below...I was fierce with that buzzer!

Disappointment

I can't help but become disappointment by certain people. I try to not have expectations; I try to be open minded and understanding, but sometimes I just feel like me doing that is just making excuses for people! I mean, I expect courtesy from people...all people...isn't that normal? Maybe I should just not care about people anymore? It's easier said than done of course. I guess I should try to not expect courtesy from someone...or is that me settling for something less than what I want? Hmmm...I can be over doing the situation, but still the issue gets right down to the basics! Well for now I will relax and try to not let such a simple disregard affect me. Hmmm...

In limbo

I'm still waitlisted at Iowa and while at the beginning of the month I thought an admissions offer was not probable, the circumstances have changed. In one week the list moved 13 spots! RIDICULOUS! If one spot opens up, if one student decides to go elsewhere I could potentially be in! It's exciting, but it's scary. It's coming down to the wire and I'm so nervous. At first I was anxious about not getting in and now I'm anxious about actually starting in one week! My time to adjust will be limited to overnight :/ I was fine up until talking to Daniela. I hadn't updated her in 3 weeks because she has been studying for the LSAT, and so the news of me potentially moving to Iowa by next Thursday came as a shock to her. I freaked out when I heard her reaction. She has been one of my closest friends since I first moved to LA and our connection is so deep that all my anxieties just came out at the sound of her voice! After our conversation I started to cry :/ to get all my thoughts out before they consumed me...it's a good thing Rocio woke up when she did to hear me out.

I mean, my life could potentially change DRAMATICALLY in 6 days! And by dramatically I mean, I could be in a different city and state, completely different from LA or SD. ..Iowa City, Iowa, population 60,000 of which 30,000 comprise U of Iowa! The whole situation is incredibly exciting, but like I said, scary. I need to stay positive and remain focused. I can't focus on the details, such as what clothes will I take, should I buy shampoo here or over there...The details will kill me if my thoughts linger...everything will work out in the end, whether I go or I stay.

reaction

Today is the first day of class for UCLA and Drew. I don't really feel anything significant today; it's a regular day. I suppose its a good thing that I don't feel sad or mad...I feel normal. The date almost snuck up on me to be honest.

I've been so set on playing with my camera and focusing on my personal health that i just forgot what the 4th signified. What does it really signify? Nothing more than the fact that the DGSOM started today, that's it. It doesn't represent anything about me! It doesn't represent who I am, who I will be or what I am capable of. It CAN signify that if I trouble myself to overthink the situation, but simpler is easier, basic is better. Letting nature take its course without me interrupting with my pessimistic thoughts is the best thing to do and I can fel that it is exactly what I have done. I am at peace with it. Second time around, who knows if I will even want to stay in LA! I want to get out and explore the world. I want to challenge myself and see yet another side of myself!

at home

I love being at home with my mom. She is so cute and is now able to do so much on her. It's kinda sad though that I can tell that even when surrounded by many, she still feels alone. When I'm in SD my attention is hers because in reality she is the only reason I go back. But when I'm here I can't experience even a moment of silence and it reminds me of why I left in the first place.

On another note, I've felt sickly and weak physically the last couple of days, but very positive emotionally. I have made a commitment to focus on myself and to go with the flow. And since working on it, I haven't felt like I did last week...rejected and even a little desperate! The Arizona road trip to see my Yoyo really helped to restore my sanity and focus! I feel as if everything I watch on TV or listen to on the radio is trying to tell me something about my current situation. It's a good feeling to see the universe working in such a way. It is definitely helping to restore my faith in things happening for a reason